1.2 lost...not bad.

Is it bad to have two weigh ins a week on different scales???? I weigh myself at the Kronos class on Tuesday nights on their scale, then I weigh myself on my scale Friday mornings. I like my scale the best :) Tonight at Kronos I lost 1.2 pounds. That puts me at a 7.2 pound lost in two weeks, I am proud of myself. I've noticed a difference in my t-shirts, I don't have to wrap them around my knees to stretch them to fit around my belly. Also, I'm noticing my sleeves don't feel like those strap they put on you to take you blood pressure anymore.

I'm getting used to my workout schedule, it might actually work! Here is my schedule:

Mondays-- no workouts, Aiden's soccer practice
Tuesdays-- boot camp
Wednesdays--personal training session
Thursdays-- boot camp
Fridays--optional gym workout
Saturdays-- Housework, soccer games, family time
Sundays-- boot camp

I feel like I should be working out everyday because I'm in a contest, but hey with two kids and one being only 8 months old that is not possible. I'm really excited about February because my school does a walking challenge where our students are challenged to log 10,000 steps a day and I have permission to take my students on a walk everyday for 20minutes around the neighborhood. Great way to get me moving!!

What a week

So I think the week of hell is finally over....for now. Addie is feeling much better and is back to her cute and stubborn self, I have gotten used to my condition and my new found diet, and Tyler's grandma is still hanging on in hospice (like I said "for now")

This week I plan to go back to the gym, I haven't been in almost 2 weeks. I paid for 6 sessions with a trainer and I've only used one. I'm hoping they won't give me too much of a guilt trip because I might just say some things that aren't supposed to be spoken out loud. Family comes first, period. Tonight I'm going to do the boot camp that kicked my ass. I think I need a good ass kicking so I can get back in the swing of exercising. I wouldn't say I hit a plateau, but I'm not losing as fast as I was, only 1 pound last week. I really would like to win the contest, but with me having PCOS I don't think my body is capable of losing all the weight I want it to in only 4 months. But hey, 10 pounds in one month isn't so bad, and if I keep it up it will be 40 by the end of the contest. Maybe some of the contestants have given up, who knows.

I want to start posting what I'm eating so maybe I'll get on later.

Sugar is my enemy

The other night I wanted something sweet so I had some melted marshmallow on graham crackers. Yesterday I felt sick all day. I think my body can't take sugar on the meds I'm taking, or maybe my body has never been able to take sugar. I feel much better this morning. Thank goodness because I have to go back tomorrow.

Being home with 2 sick kids has been really hard. I haven't gone to the gym in a week. I feel really guilty. Plus I had to cancel one of my training appointments, and still haven't made another one. My mom is here to help us out with day-care, so hopefully I can make it some time!

On the meds

Yesterday I filled my prescription for metformin. I started taking it last night. So far the only side effect is I'm having a little bit of nausea.....feel like I'm pregnant again. I had my weigh in and I lost 2 pounds last week. I'm now exactly where I was before the holidays. Which means I'm either going to be stuck here for two months, or I will finally break the barrier. I'm trying to stay positive so bring on the bulldozer.

I don't like to announce my weight publicly or anything, but it's obvious from my pics that I'm over 200 pounds (hey I'm honest). So my first goal is to get below 200, I'll announce it when it happens, hopefully soon. My other goal has been a dream of mine since I was a teenager. It's not an exact weight, it's a non-scale victory (NSV). I want to be able to walk into a clothing store, take some clothes from then non-plus section, and have them fit. I'm actually right now not even in the plus section. (I'm short and have no boobs, nothing everlooks right.) I'm in the middle, so all my clothes have taken me forever to find. I try on 20 things and come out with 1. I REALLY want that to stop. Oh how nice it would be to try on clothes and actually get a choice of what I buy, not buy them because I have no other option.

Addie is doing better. She had a follow-up and he said it looks like she's heading in the right direcion, no need for hospitals. I'm still a little freaked out about the long term affects. I hope it doesn't make her sick in the future. She slept throught the night last night (first time in 2 week!!! Mommy really needed that!) and right now she's taking a nap. She probably is trying to catch up on her sleep, poor girl

Flashback Friday

Here's some before shots of me.

Sigh....why is it everything happens in one week!

This week has been horrible. I won't tell you everything, it's hard for me to write about it.

Right now I'm home with my daughter who has RSV. What a scary diagnosis!!! You have to wait around for 3 days to see if she gets better, and if she doesn't it's off to the hospital. If she doesn't get better there she can be affected the rest of her life. I'm hoping for the best but so far today I think she has gotten worst. It's so hard watching your baby struggle to breathe and be in so much pain. She also has an ear infection, and both of her top teeth are coming in. Poor thing. I feel so bad.

This week I got a diagnosis too. I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). I was having trouble losing weight so my Dr. did some test and there it was. One of the affects of it is obesity and trouble losing weight. (I have a lot more symptoms but I won't mention them TMI) It's weird finally knowing that there is something actually wrong with me. I've always wondered why I can gain 10 pounds in one week if I don't watch what I eat. Watching the biggest loser all these years has really pissed me off. Some of the contestants are my size and they show what they eat, I've NEVER eaten like that in my life.

I'm probably not making any sense. I don't know what to think about the whole situation. I go to my Dr. today to maybe get on meds and find out what exactly this is, and what I need to do to control it. I'll write again later and maybe change my blog into some sort of LIVING WITH PCOS blog. I'm sure there are other people out there that have this.

5 pounds down!!!

My first week and I lost 5 pounds, unbelievable! I'm only 2 pounds away from where I was when I took my 2 month break. I am so looking forward to more weeks like that. I haven't been out to eat, or had any kind of sweet dessert and I have to say I'm ok with that. My 29th birthday I think really woke me up. I don't want to be like this forever, and I don't want any more regrets about my weight.

Today we are celebrating my birthday by seeing the Lion King and going to one of my favorite Indian food restaurants. The thing thats stressing me out is Aiden has soccer pictures right before the show and I know we are going to be late. I've always wanted to see it and I'm bummed that I miss the beginning. I hope I don't freak out and embarass myself at soccer pictures.

At the Indian restaurant I'm planning on getting my favorite, chicken curry. I usually order it with naan and rice, but I think I'm just going to get naan. That's stuff good! I also am going to only eat half of the curry. I used to eat the whole thing and get incredibly stuff. But I'm done with that. Plus who has fun when they feel like they're going to explode.

Trader Joes

Today we did our grocery shopping for the first time at Trader Joes. It's a very small store and it was a little awkward trying to squeeze through the small aisles with so many other people doing their Saturday shopping there. The best part of shopping there was Aiden had a little cart to push around. He loved putting the food in his cart, the checker even let him scan some of the items.

We did a whole weeks of groceries and spent half as much as a regular food store. Even though things were more expensive they didn't have all the junk that we end up getting.

Today I did really good with my eating. Everything I ate today was healthy and I drank a lot of my lemon water. One thing I'm really concentrating on is not having any sugar snacks. I'm sticking to one diet coke a day, and some flavored creamer for my coffee. I've never stopped eating sugar, but with me if give me a piece of cake and I eat the whole darn thing. So I'm trying to not have the piece at all.

Tonight were heading to a fantasy football party and I'm going to do my best and stay away from things. Ty made some hummus to bring over and everyone at the party are tri-athletes so I should be fine. I'm planning also going to the gym and doing some cardio. I'll check in later!!

I did it!!

I just got back from the gym, I'm sweaty, stinky, and I LOVE it!! I'm so proud of myself. I did 20 minutes on the treadmill, 3 sets of abs (I forgot how much that hurts after a c-section), and 20 minutes on the bike. Now I'm going to take my cricket and make a poster....I'm a scrapbooking nerd if you didn't know that already.

Biggest Loser Contest

I went in to my gym to officially weigh myself and take before pics. I went in with long black pants and a semi-tight green shirt on thinking that that was what I was going to wear for the pic. My trainer convinced that it would be better if I took off the shirt and just had the sports bra on. Although it was only like 10 seconds that was seriously the most embarassing thing I've ever gone through. It's funny though because now I'm thinking I should of just went for having shorts on too. Oh well, I'm not in it for the money, I'm in it to get my butt in gear.

So far today I've done really well on my eating. This morning I went to the Dr. to get blood taken to make sure everything is ok, and I don't have any physical issues with my weight. On the way home I stopped at QT because I was starving, and ended up choosing a slim fast. It was actually really good. When I got home we ate some veggies, hummus, and a couple of pita chips. Then for lunch I had leftover grilled chicken and pasta.

My next plan is to cut up some of the lemons we got from our tree and put them in some water. I heard that putting lemons in water will increase your metabolism. I don't know about that, sounds too easy.

Here's a recent pic of me and the family at X-mas, we're at the grandparents house
(check out the couch!)

This year I turn 30!!

I can't believe I'll be 30 this year. That is CRAZY!!

Yesterday Tyler and I signed up for the gym across the street. They are a 24 hour gym and it's really convenient since we can just walk or ride our bikes there if we wanted too. I also joined their biggest loser contest. It starts today and goes until April 28th. First place is $1,000, a $2,000 vacation, and a free 1 year membership. I honestly think I can do it. The only thing that sux is I'm not officially enrolled until next Thursday. So what do I do?? Start my plan now or wait until Thursday? I wish they had some openings sooner, but it's my fault for waiting so long. Did I mention that I'll have 6 half-hour personal training sessions?


Something else I'm now apart of is something called Kronos. It's a program my work is putting on. It's pretty much free, and I think it would good for me to try something other than weight watcher since that doesn't work for me. Between the Kronos thing, the biggest loser contest, and the personal training something better click or I'm probably stuck like this forever!