Right back to where I was

Today was my weigh in day and I'm right back to what I was 2 weeks ago. I was hoping for maybe a tenth of a pound be different then before....ha.

Last night I was over a little bit. That wasn't probably smart going over points the night before a weigh in. I know now to be very careful. This week there are some challenges ahead. My parents are coming this weekend and I know we will be eating out a lot. Next week work is going to kill me!!! It's a very busy week for me, and when I get stressed I turn to food. Here are some things other than eating I'll do if I feel the urge:

1.) CLEAN!! (Yea right, I am not very domesticated, I have to force myself to do that)
2.) Read. ( I am reading Twilight right now. OMG! SOOOOOOOO good. I'm almost done but there's always the next 3)
3.) Scrapbook. (I love to scrapbook. I don't do too much of the fancy stuff. We don't have the money for that, but I love to do it, it calms me when I'm stressed

Snuck a peek

I kind of got on the scale this morning. It's like a magnet, what can I say. It looks good though so I'm feeling even more motivated as I start my day!

I'll post later.

"Just keep counting, just keep counting"

These past couple of days I have been doing sooooo good counting my points. I'm actually really impressed with myself. I went to the store tonight to buy formula and I ended up not getting any snacks or drinks to bring back home. I also have made sure that I drink all my water. Today I swear I peed 20 times.

All this talk about me doing so well usually just leaves in dissappointment. I probably won't do well at my weigh in, which will make me frustrated and then I'll say F*** it and I'll just stop trying for 6 months and gain 30 pounds. Ahhhh, yes that would be me. I guess the difference now is I'm trying not to be so negative. Since I've had Addison I' ve lost over 30 pounds. And even though I've only lost 10 since the baby weight just melted off, I'm really happy about that. I just need to see myself as a turtle, "slow and steady wins the race" and be glad for every little success I have.

Laundry Day

Today it felt like I did 20 loads of laundry. Ever since Addy was born I seem to have lost my groove with the whole laundry thing. She needs a "special" detergent. People make it seem like if you wash their clothes with regular detergent something terrible is going to happen. Don't tell anyone, but her pajamas she wore last night were accidently thrown in with ours. (GASP!)She was absolutely fine! She didn't have to go to the hospital, and her body didn't expand into an array of rashes. I guess that's my cue that she would be ok if I stop the "special" detergent. Sure would make my life easier!

Today I did very well OP. The only thing is I felt really dizzy and nauseated the majority of the day. Is that normal? I was eating, I wonder if my body is in shock from me cutting my calories so much after quitting nursing. Drinking a lot of water seemed to help, so maybe I was just dehydrated? I don't know. We went shopping today and I got some low point items. I also got my lunch ready for the week. I'm having egg salad for two lunches, and some grilled chicken salad for two days, and I'll finally top it off with a lean cuisine. It feels good to have a plan when it comes to lunch. We can't afford the money, and I can't afford the points of eating out everyday.

I gained...

Yesterday was my weigh in and I gained 2 pounds. *sigh*

So I did everything I could to stay within points and by the end of the day I made it!! Of course there was an event going on at a friends house and we were welcomed by a lot of homeade appetizers. I was determined to just sip on a beer and take those points. HA! I didn't make it. It started with a taste of the spinach artichoke dip and ended up with a brownie. I was so not liking myself. I keep doing this and it's pissing me off. Why do I like food so much? Why can't I avoid it?

We're off to Costco when the kids wake up. (We didn't get home until midnight and both of them were up all night, I can't believe Addy did that! I am not having any samples unless it's fruit. I can't do it. I'll try one and have all of them. I will lose this week!

Not looking forward to tomorrow

Tomorrow is my weigh in day. I don't think I lost any weight this week. I've followed the plan, but I could of done better. Today I looked into going to meetings, but it looks expensive. AZ sux, they don't offer the monthly plan. I guess I'll just stick to E-tools.

Addy is doing much better. She had a "blow-out" today at daycare. Luckily it happened before the prune juice. Obviously after that they thought it better to not give her the bottle of it that I sent. Now we get to wait for two weeks to see if this new "hypoallergenic" formula works out. Makes me REALLY wish I didn't stop breastfeeding. But she was having problems with my milk too, I just need to keep reminding myself of that.

Can't wait for the weekend!!!

Poor Baby

Today I'm staying home from work because my little girl is constipated. Everytime she trys to do her thing she just lets out these blood curdling screams. She did this last night. She has been having trouble spitting up so we put her on soy...oy never again. We're going to take her to the doctor to see if she can get some acid reflux medicine to help her out. I'll post again later.

Update....

So after 6 hours of suppositories (sp?) and prune juice, I think Addy finally got enough out to be comfortable. Poor thing, when she wasn't trying all I could do is just hold her and comfort her. I really don't want to go through that again. It makes me feel so bad about giving up nursing. I didn't realize how badly it would affect her.

I had a bad/good day when it came to WW. I did go to McDonalds for lunch and order a small nugget and fries meal. I also had chinese food for dinner. BUT when I went into work for a little while I was able to stay away from the treats that were left out and only get the fruit. That is soooo unlike me. I usually can't resist a cookie, or a handful of chips. What's good about the chinese food is I didn't order anything fried, and I only ate half so tomorrow I have some left over for lunch!

Taco Bell Run

Tonight we went to Taco Bell because we got home late. I just got 2 tacos and I even managed to stay within my points. It is so hard for me to get out of the habit of ordering or eating whatever I want. Before this I wouldn't eat whatever I wanted, but I would treat myself once in awhile. The problem was that once in awhile turned out to be once a day. Now that I'm done with kids this is my last chance to lose this weight. That means no more "special" occasions, and no more treats. I am done!

Doing good

T0day was my first day back at work since being OP again and I have to say I did very well. I stayed within my points, and felt really good. The one thing I've noticed is I don't have the cravings that I had when I was nursing. I'm also not so hungry anymore. Thank god! 5 more days until my weigh in.

Ugh....Sunday

I can't believe it's already Sunday. I so don't want to go back to work tomorrow. It's so hard being a working mom, especially when you have a baby. I wish I could just take off, but I used up all my days for maternity leave. Blah.

Anyway, today we didn't have Aiden in the morning. We got up and took Addy for a walk to the store. It was funny because it was actually cold this morning. I live in AZ so that was the first day it's been chilly since she was born. She looked so cute all bundled up with a beanie on. We actually had to buy some more winter clothes because we don't have any in her size. After our walk we took Ty's mom out to lunch at Sweet Tomatoes. I did very good with just a salad and baked potato. I'm not sure how to count those points. That's the bad thing about WW sometimes you just don't know.

Tonight I plan on making my lunches for the week so I can bring them and not worry about buying lunch. I also bought some celery sticks and carrots to take as snacks. This is all about me changing what I eat completely. There is always snacks at work, and it's up to me to not have any.

Some days are just a giant to-do list

Don't you just hate it when there are days where it seems like your constantly trying to get things done so you can move on to something else? Today felt that way in the beginning of the day, but eventually got better.

This morning I woke up and tried desperately to get caught up on laundry. I still haven't got this whole laundry for four thing down. After Ty got home from training we got to drop the kids off and have a day to ourselves, the only thing is most of the day was running errands. I had to take a test for traffic-school then go to work and get some stuff ready for Monday. Then Ty had to find a wetsuit for his triathalon. We eventually ended up at a friends house for a nice bbq, and I had my first alcoholic beverage in two years, so all and all it wasn't so bad.

Today I did ok following on plan. We did go out to Indian food, (I'm trying to eat as much spicy food as possible since stopping nursing.) and I consumed a 6 pack of a "light" alcoholic drink. The old me would end up going to Jack-in-the-Box, or Taco Bell for muchies, but tonight I just got my 1 point chocolate pudding snack and felt fine. I know that once I get overy the whole, "I need to have since I haven't had it in so long" thing, I know I'll be really ready to stay OP.

For the record...

On the way back from the museum we stopped at Cold Stone and I got nothing but an iced tea!!!!! My first victory!!! Also, the kids are asleep and I have 2 points left. I can't believe I actually made it through my first day OP!!!

No more nursing!!

Today is the first day I will not nurse Addy. Top 3 things I will make sure to consume: coffee, peanut butter, and brocolli. I would say just kidding, but I am dead serious. Oh how I've missed caffeine!!

Today is also the first day I go down in points on weight watchers. Although I haven't been following the program that much since having her I've managed to lose 36 pounds. I only have 3 pounds left to get to my pre-pregancy weight, but then I need to work on the 10 pounds left over from Aiden.....and then the 20 pounds I've gained since our wedding day. I'm too depressed to go on, but trust me I have more to lose than that.

My mother-in-law gave me all her materials for weight watchers and I'm signed up to do it online. I was planning on starting meetings after I stop nursing but of course finances don't look so hot right now. Ty and I went yesterday and canceled our gym memberships. We also downgraded our cell phones and cable. We're not drowning in debt, or late on any payments, just had to start taking Addy to daycare a couple days a week instead of grandma's house, had to find the money somehow.

Today we are off from school and have decided to take a family day. I don't think we've done a family day since before Addy was born. We've decided to go to the Phoenix Children's Museum. (Our other options were the zoo and the state fair, but this of course was the cheapest.) I"m really looking forward to it. I'm glad we're going somewhere to let Aiden run around and play. He's 3 and has been a little neglected due to the baby.

I'm going to stop writing so I can figure out what else I can do with this blog. If you don't see a pic here of the museum then that means I'm dumb and I can't figure this whole blog thing out.